-cough cough-. clears the dust.
its been some time.
pfft. don't know what i'm feeling. maybe its the combined stress from o levels and her. catalysed by constant nightmares, together with weird and undefined dreams with consists of different visits of different people i thought i never wanted to see again.
curse blowjobs.
curse sexual intercourse
curse o levels ( TO BE EASY )
curse my ability to humour myself when im feeling low
today i realised something, i am usually the exact opposite of how i feel. when i feel alright/happy. i try to find something that makes me emo.
when im down. i cover it all up, and pretend that i'm crazily happy.
i hate this mask i'm wearing. and yet i'm gonna continue leaving it on, because i made a promise, and its to not make others worry for me anymore.
i can smell the brimstone burning ever so closely
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